I hated myself today
(I'm writing this on a Wednesday, Nov 3).

I'm annoyed, frustrated, agitated, irritated. Today is a day where I just want to quit everything, question my existence, and hide under a rock. A day where I go through every past decision and think "Shit".

I have a lot of screaming fucks in my head.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

Why the fuck can't I be happy?

Why the fuck am I ungrateful?

Why the fuck do I avoid success?

Almost every time in my life, my fucks have been very complex, multi-layered. It's never one single fuck, always a multiple of them. In for a penny...

What an idiot, I think to myself.

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